Life Is Hard

Sometimes… life is hard. Understatement?

Every day I scroll through facebook (yes this is probably a waste of time) and see all these people doing awesome things (pole, training, random and otherwise). And I think “I want to do awesome things!” Put it on the goal list!

But here’s the thing: you can only have so many goals at once

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You can only have so many goals and you only have so much time. So unfortunately, you just can’t do everything (at least not with a baby anyways! Ha!).

And sometimes, that sucks. Like really sucks.

You see, the problem with the internet is you get to see everything. The good, bad, amazing and annoying. And after watching all these people be bad asses you become.. well.. a bit jealous (yes even me :P).

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The issue with seeing all the amazing stuff everyone else can do is you start to question why you can’t do it yourself. Or worse, you become slightly put out when a friend has time to work towards one of your goals and you don’t.

It sucks. Like I said, life is hard.

If it were up to me (and my body complied.. HA) I would spend all my time working on my lifting goals, learning to pole deadlift, doing free handstand and gymnastics, increasing my pole climbs and trying out rock climbing and silks.

Instead I work on two goals out of the ten I’d realistically like to achieve. And I am proud of those goals. I love how my body has adapted to them and what it can accomplish. But like everyone these days… I want more.

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And it’s funny, because I personally is not a competitive person. At all. And yet I want more. I want to be better. I want to be awesome. It drive me.

It took me a while to realize (okay probably longer than it seriously should have!) that there’s more to my life than being able to land every big pole trick. That it’s probably ok if I can’t deadlift into a handstand from the floor. And that truly there are more important things and ways to spend my time: like watching my wee one learn to stand!!!

But it’s a hard lesson to learn. It’s still a challenge not to want to be the best at it all. It’s still difficult to see people doing better than me… but I’m doing all right ๐Ÿ˜‰ And I imagine that it’ll take me a little longer the fully be at peace with it all.

So for those of you out there like me (you know, the cocky, compulsive, insane people) here’s my two cents: take a breath, look around, and realize how awesome you already are. There will always be more to accomplish, to work towards.. but wherever you are in life there’s also more to enjoy than you think ๐Ÿ˜‰